imagine this, you wake up at 6 am for work. you're tired, lazy, and just want to get back to bed. plus it's raining harder than it does in movies. you force yourself to get to work... 30 minutes late. then after attempting to work for an hour, you sneak away to your car. its pouring rain outside. so hard, that you almost got in an accident on your way to work. you get in your car, while you're still on the clock getting paid, tired... not wanting to be at work at all. jump in the drivers seat, wet all over, wet socks, kind of have to pee. recline the seat back. its cold, but you have two hoodies on. you hear the hard rain hitting your car, you turn your radio on and play your slow jam cd... with the volume low enough so you can still hear the rain. looking up threw the moonroof, watching each drop splash as it hits the glass. you close your eyes, and fall asleep.

then girl, you can imagine you were on my mind right before i dozed off. you probably were ;)

work of art flow!
we were a work of art, i used a sharpie. you used a pencil, and drew all sloppy. after it was done, you got an eraser, erased all the pencil and left me thinkin should i chase her? i chased after you, before our art was finished, and i don't know why i chased you after our art diminished. all this for no reason, i really trusted you, but all your acts of treason; or were you just teasin. you just wanted some pleasin. you told me im cool, fly, and super steezin. so much wasted effort on you, like so many other people in my life, you'd think i'd get the clue. i'm better than you, but i dont need to hear it. cause deep down i know and you're gonna hear it. "you're a dumbass" "you're a bitch" "you're wasting time on shit that ain't legit". you think you look for the good in people, you see the good, hate on it cause you don't get to see people. get out of your bubble, you're going no where. you've got such big plans to end up somewhere.

it bugs me when girls act beyond their age, unless they back it up, life is such a bigger stage. you get up there, and use big words. but honestly, can you define those words? word. see, you pulled out a dictionary. you sing like a scrub but think you sould like mariah carey. i can say you're letting your self go. you have no physical acivity except walkin to the store for some ho ho's. and on your way there, people callin you a ho ho. well i need to go, good luck fosho HO.
<3 brandon. jk

HAHA i have no idea why i felt like i had to write that. i'm not even in a bummed out mood, just had some weird thoughts about past memories and future situations. i guess it's just inspiration. lol jk. you probably have an idea who its about, it isn't about her tho. or her. but i think it's about her. it's kind of a random words put together, based on those past and future memories and situations.

so many girls to write about, is this about you? maybe, maybe not, maybe two of you. ya right! i'm no player, but lately gettin played.. like i'm just fun and games. from day 1, i thought you were cute, fly and what not. believe it or not you were hotter than the sneakers i just bought. if you were my size, i'd wear you on the daily. lace my shoes tight, run shit like you do daily. you do more than run shit, you're running through my mind. how i'd love to be up on you and feelin them theighs. siiiiiiike. thats not what i'm about, i'm not like every other guy, calm down don't shout. those phonies... honeslty i just want to spend time, kickit, not tryna get domies. chill like homies. well i'll take it from there, then maybe give it a shot. see if you were really hotter than the sneakers i bought. i don't see you too often, but still give me and you a thought =) haha actually maybe i'm just crushin. i'll give it time no need for rushin.

well i'm glad this week is over, i've had 0 days off from school and work. next week i'll have more time off thank god. i only got out of the house twice this week, and i had to be home early cause of school or work the next day. i can tell when i'm spending more time at home:

1 - i have a lot more pocket money cause i'm not out spending money.
2 - i find myself having longer conversations on aim, talking on oovoo, and replying to comments and messeges on myspace real quick cause im HOME! haha

i been slangin textbooks this week too. all the people that picked up books were dope!. lot of um were cuties, and down to kickit. weird huh? reminds me one time i bought something off craigslist, and met up with the girl with some friends and the girl was cute! and she was trying to hang out with me. weird... school sucks, except for socializing. second week of school this week =( so far away from the end of the semester. saw a face i didn't think i would have, i just said "how ya doin?" lol geez.. why am i so nice? i have no reason to be. oh well. heroes starts tomorrow. lol ya i'm a nerd bout that. oh and some nigga hit my car today in the parking lot, nothing major.. but still.

so i was saying, usually i love first days back at school. but i wasn't feelin this semester. but once i arrived, i was in YO! HOW YOU DOIN!? mode. it was nice seeing some old faces, swear i felt like fall 08 all over again. then meetin some new faces is always fun.

feels like fall 08 cause i see the same faces, but i'm not going outta my way to meet people; the homies... are already homies!

econ 120 w/ tim
class seems dope, definitely some chill people in there. no eye candy, but looks like theres some suckers that'll support steezbot!! haha jk, for real though. good vibes in the room. homie status.

history 101 w/ alfred and adda
see some familiar faces in there too. i like the teacher, seems like a good one. class seems a little tough though. we did an intro of ourseleves in class, and somehow i ended up saying something about steezbot. it was kind of funny. seems like a lot of work ahead, but i see me having fun in there at the same time.

humanities 101 w/ adda
dropped my og class, and crashed a better one. i want to make a new friend in there ;) haha jk not really. then not really seein any homies in the class. but teacher seems alright, kind of a spaz but i think the class will run smoothly.

i don't think i'm going to take the 8 week night class MW. i might stick with 9 units this semester?

so seeing a lot of the same faces, probably kick it with rob somedays. nicole somedays. health class homies! tim and alfred on the daily. adda daily. i see a fun, educational, and hopefully drama free semester ahead. you at mesa T TH?? let's grab lunch!!

i need a new job

i'm sick of my job, no money and doing this bullshit... stacking fruits and vegetables all day can make your crazy.


back to school spring 2009

usually i look forward to first days back. got the back to school clothes on, new kicks, meeting new people. blah blah blah.

but i'm looking forward to ABSOLUTELY NOTHING tomorrow. no new clothes, no new kicks... not that that's a big deal. but no school supplies, shity schedule, crashing classes, fucked up parking. then i still hate my job, i want a new one. hook it up? and my car is dirty as fuck. that usually bugs me but i feel so lazy, dull, whatever...

lackluster.

my life tomorrow. sucks.

people think i'm a baller, i'm not, nor a shot caller. all i wanna do is holler! but i hold back... cause i can't. almost like you're off limits but i swear my heart can't withstand... all these feelings gettin built up. like a puzzle after gettin ripped up. how do we know me and you aren't puzzle pieces? we might fit together maybe not let's go talk about it and help me prove my thesis. my thesis intends to prove that we could be together, no matter what happens, in good and bad weather. let me be a rat, and you can be my cheddar. i would just love to write you super sweet love letters. i'm scared that you'll never get to hear my real feelings, but read this flow and maybe you'll get a taste of what i'm dealin. over time i could get over you, but the fact i never tried would eat at me, all i wanna do is holler at you.

mountain biking is definitely in the future. some co workers are hardcore, i'm looking forward to it.

anyways, i went to this vietnamese festival today. to kickit, grub, and support og jeannie. it was like a carnival thing, with games and stuff. of course i wasted a lot of money, i like winning games and getting prizes though. before the fashion show, was some whack viet american idol. i was going nuts! then some deep talks with adda about macking on girls, pretty dope. JK i don't mack. i wish though right?

anyways, life has been GOOD lately. busy but not swampped. school starts tuesday, i'm sure that'll throw a curveball into my dailys.

tomorrow will be non stop, i'm super tired. then work 7 - 4. straight to balboa for OG's beauty pageant, then whatever else the night has in store for me. i wanna make it up to costa mesa for a friends kickback, and whatever else functions. i think i just might be pooped out.

OH, and i had some vietnamese treat. i guess its pineapple, and they put that mexican lucas sugar salt shit on it. it was naaaaaasty. like putting shit on your lips and it gets stuck there.