for blogging.

no joke, this is one of the first nights in the last 2-3 weeks i've actually been home in the evening. just chillin. the last few weeks have been work or school all day. come home and nap for an hour, then i'm off to the club, to a party, to a study session, to a meeting, to a dinner, to a random last minute kickit... and after all that i come home at 3 - 4 am, sleep for 2 or 3 hours, then go to work at 7am. then do it all over again. i'm tired, so tired i could go to bed at 8pm. not even kindergartners go to bed that early.

so let's catch up. and i'll end with a dope rhyme talkin bout you wasting my time! HA! jk

schools mode. 2 of my classes require a lot of reading, then the exams require written answers. what happened to multiple choice?? but ya, i've been at sdsu maybe 5 - 6 times in the last two weeks. and what have i accomplised? no studying or hw, just some socializing hahaha.

been clubbing the last two weeks, just cause we've been promoting club events pretty regularly the last few weeks. last friday was dope! drank just enough, and enough freak a leaks in there to try n break me off hahaha. i'm never really in club mode, just cause it requires me to be late for work or school the next morning. but give me a copule shots and i'll reconsider.

i been kicking it down south a lotvor i'm kickin back in la jolla. and that's pretty much why i'm only home to nap or sleep. living northside though, drives are killer on my gas. and gas is killer on my $$$. gas is cheap right now, and im still spending 50 + dollars are week?

and speaking of money, i've gotten 3 tickets! my registration for my car was up this month! i needed to buy a parking pass! my car payment was due! i almost need to buy a new cell phone. hahaha. mike kimme jonajay marie n mark kno whats up. i fucking dropped my phone in a glass of water. it was the stupidest thing ever. so ya, i been spending a lot of money this week. so i'm all tight on money, and i'm going to hin tomorrow.

i been chillin with magec a lot more lately, it's been real dope! we always figure out somethin fun to do.

well hin tomorrow! see you there?
oh and incahoots on thursday. see you there??

flowtime, ftw:
things going in my favor, i can smell ya in my thoughts. now that this is happening, i'm having second thoughts. usually girls grow on me, lately you make no progress. nothing but games, causing me unecessary stress. i haven't seen you in a while either, life is still chillin, no need to please you, see you, or desire to tease you. oh and shout out to this other girl. so fake with me, hittin me up now like shits all great.. please. you like a skank ass booty clapper in the club, tryna get off, get it, peace out, fuck you, lets grub. next day you don't remember them, the next day you didn't remember me. had my heart all twisted crying out for you and me. it's all good though, cause right now life is real dope. with or without you i'm doin big things while you at a stand still hoping i choke. just like all the haters, i been seeing a lot laately. all cool to my face, but talkin shit bout me greatly. mad cause the girl they want wants to date me.

lackluster epitome, you waste my time, are you kiddin me? you make me lazy, dull, wish i didn't know you. get out of my life, or jump right in, it's as if you've got no clue. you mean a lot to me, i wish the feelings mutual, i make it like you in my life is real crutial. in your mind you and i are like the bank, theres no more washington mutual. you kinda got a lot of cargo, no wonder i bank at wells fargo. i really enjoy you around, but if we'll never be anything, all i can do is frown. on the ground. like ground beef, thats what my heart feels like, ground meat. mashed up in small peices, but you don't even want me to prove my thesis. we're like a bad essay, me and you lack context, supporting facts, we'll never get an A.

catch up!
haven't blogged in a while. last week was real busy. trying to go out, school, and work. i studied til past 2 am three times last week! late night study sesh's at sdsu w/ j lam. and jeannie. i killed myself one night, drank up southside, slept at porks at 3 am. woke up for work at 6 am. then worked 7 - 4. then had to study after! it's really wearing me out... so i been chillin lately. monday, another late night with history exam prep. i had my exam tues. we were all stressin about it! but i think we'll all do alright. study study study, exams exams exams. damnit.

i kinda care about you, even after what we went through. i feel bad, if you were doin bad. why? how do i even kno how you're doin? guess i kinda know cuz i had to snoop. lol and if your reading this blog entry, you're a snooper too. so i guess what i'm sayin is, if you were down to talk. hit me up, let's do lunch.

i do things so unnecessarily. why do i care so much, would you do the same for me? NAW, rarely. goes to show how much effort i'm putting in, lack of anything there, waiting for you to jump in. i jumped off, fell down. waiting for you to meet me there, i dont see you and i just frown. look at me, layin on the ground. with a frown, drinkin crown. siiike, but really lookin like a clown. you can only do so much, with out taking chances of gettin rejected. why is rejection such a big thing, its better than havin your heart neglected. keepin feelings inside, when they're meant to tell the world. keep your bullshit inside, theres no room for it in this world. you, her, and her: i'm you guys plan B. i bring my A game, but sit on bench constantly. don't get me wrong, sure i can get play. but no play i want, they're just fun and games. so i don't take advantage, cuz i want you. so for right now my hearts got a bandage, from lack of you too. i guess i'm waiting for you to holler at me boo. im sittin here with my un-laced shoes. trying to run shit, i need you to tie them, so we can shit.

go listen to: colby o donis - thinking bout ya
i heard this song a couple months ago, and was like damn did this guy just take all my thoughts and put it in his song? that biter. just kidding.

hey girl. you're getting hotter. hotter than the average temperature that a man could stand if you hold my hand, i could be your man. but i, didn't kno you'd make this harder. whatchu tryna say baby... running games on me.

girl i will try, to give the best to you, and do the things others wouldn't do. cause your expectations got so high, i could be your guy only if i tried, but i kno i gotta step my game up.

girl i been thinkin bout ya.
girl i been dreamin bout ya..

...cause the scent of your clothes, the red blush on your face, even your swagger makes me wish that i could grab a taste. cause you don't know, all the hoops i had to go through to get you a second in my life...

...don't be distant, don't be shy...

..girl i'll break my back, to cover all your needs, as long as you is pleased, it don't matter to me...

anyways, it's been raining non stop. that makes me wanna sleep, plus i only got 3 hours of sleep this morning before i had to go to work. deco's was fun tho. i have a lot of hw to catch up on tonight, so i better sleep now. class tomorrow morning =(

i've got problems in the morning. no matter what i'm doing, i'm LATE. since i've worked at vons, i've been 10 minutes late for work, daily. it's weird cause i'm exactly 10 mintues late. why can't i be exactly on time?? i try really hard, and i just can't do it. same goes for school... so i just skipped econ all together. my teacher is crazy, she teaches at mesa and sdsu, and i don't know what her deal is, but she misses class every other class. but never tells us anything! so i figure, why not skip it. i went and got a haircut. i've been cutting my hair and it's gettin fucked up. so i paid 14 dollars + tip for the lady who is a professional to do exactly what me or a homie could have done to my hair. then i had a quiz in humanities today, i'm pretty sure i failed. it's ok though, i have time to get my A in there. after school, had a quick photoshoot with adda hahaha. her sk takes pretty good pics.

i'm so lazy after school, school gets me extra tired. so i have to nap. i missed one of my homegirls bday kickbacks. i was about to head up to temecula tonight, i haven't been up there in a long time. i skipped that. and i'm home, and need to wake up for work at 7 am. well i might be up in temecula tomorrow, hit me up! i have no idea what i'm doing on valentines day haha. i could do a last minute bs date, but i don't know if i want to do that. any cuties wanna hit me up?? ;) sunday deco's for og jeannies bday. hit me up with first and last names for guest list!!

i found a new love for silly string. i sprayed "hater" really bad. i felt bad! hahaha sorry adda. and i sprayed some random cuties ;) i even sprayed this one girl that doesn't talk to me anymore, alex. WHATS UP if you're reading this!

kind of a crazy story. get this, i was trippin out. i added this girl on myspace yesterday. just cause i thought i knew her, or i've seen her around. then today, i saw this cute girl leaving school, i just thought she was a random cute girl. and i sprayed her car with silly string when we were at a stop sign! then saw her at a stop light, and i tried to talk to her for a second, said hi, then the light turned. but the girl in the car was the girl i added on myspace previously before all this happened today! so i got a comment on myspace saying hey you sprayed my car with silly string! and i was like whaaaat. what a small world huh? i hope she doesn't think i'm too much of a goof ball LOL.

well school is still sucky, i think i'm in for a shity awakening though. i've been slackin... and test quizes and exams are right around the corner. i need to buckle down.

study sesh? let's set um. i know i know, we don't have the same classes right? but the fact you meet up to study, you're probably more likely to study! so hit me up!

"HATER" sprayed, in her stank ass car. jk maaayne