for blogging.

no joke, this is one of the first nights in the last 2-3 weeks i've actually been home in the evening. just chillin. the last few weeks have been work or school all day. come home and nap for an hour, then i'm off to the club, to a party, to a study session, to a meeting, to a dinner, to a random last minute kickit... and after all that i come home at 3 - 4 am, sleep for 2 or 3 hours, then go to work at 7am. then do it all over again. i'm tired, so tired i could go to bed at 8pm. not even kindergartners go to bed that early.

so let's catch up. and i'll end with a dope rhyme talkin bout you wasting my time! HA! jk

schools mode. 2 of my classes require a lot of reading, then the exams require written answers. what happened to multiple choice?? but ya, i've been at sdsu maybe 5 - 6 times in the last two weeks. and what have i accomplised? no studying or hw, just some socializing hahaha.

been clubbing the last two weeks, just cause we've been promoting club events pretty regularly the last few weeks. last friday was dope! drank just enough, and enough freak a leaks in there to try n break me off hahaha. i'm never really in club mode, just cause it requires me to be late for work or school the next morning. but give me a copule shots and i'll reconsider.

i been kicking it down south a lotvor i'm kickin back in la jolla. and that's pretty much why i'm only home to nap or sleep. living northside though, drives are killer on my gas. and gas is killer on my $$$. gas is cheap right now, and im still spending 50 + dollars are week?

and speaking of money, i've gotten 3 tickets! my registration for my car was up this month! i needed to buy a parking pass! my car payment was due! i almost need to buy a new cell phone. hahaha. mike kimme jonajay marie n mark kno whats up. i fucking dropped my phone in a glass of water. it was the stupidest thing ever. so ya, i been spending a lot of money this week. so i'm all tight on money, and i'm going to hin tomorrow.

i been chillin with magec a lot more lately, it's been real dope! we always figure out somethin fun to do.

well hin tomorrow! see you there?
oh and incahoots on thursday. see you there??

flowtime, ftw:
things going in my favor, i can smell ya in my thoughts. now that this is happening, i'm having second thoughts. usually girls grow on me, lately you make no progress. nothing but games, causing me unecessary stress. i haven't seen you in a while either, life is still chillin, no need to please you, see you, or desire to tease you. oh and shout out to this other girl. so fake with me, hittin me up now like shits all great.. please. you like a skank ass booty clapper in the club, tryna get off, get it, peace out, fuck you, lets grub. next day you don't remember them, the next day you didn't remember me. had my heart all twisted crying out for you and me. it's all good though, cause right now life is real dope. with or without you i'm doin big things while you at a stand still hoping i choke. just like all the haters, i been seeing a lot laately. all cool to my face, but talkin shit bout me greatly. mad cause the girl they want wants to date me.

lackluster epitome, you waste my time, are you kiddin me? you make me lazy, dull, wish i didn't know you. get out of my life, or jump right in, it's as if you've got no clue. you mean a lot to me, i wish the feelings mutual, i make it like you in my life is real crutial. in your mind you and i are like the bank, theres no more washington mutual. you kinda got a lot of cargo, no wonder i bank at wells fargo. i really enjoy you around, but if we'll never be anything, all i can do is frown. on the ground. like ground beef, thats what my heart feels like, ground meat. mashed up in small peices, but you don't even want me to prove my thesis. we're like a bad essay, me and you lack context, supporting facts, we'll never get an A.

catch up!
haven't blogged in a while. last week was real busy. trying to go out, school, and work. i studied til past 2 am three times last week! late night study sesh's at sdsu w/ j lam. and jeannie. i killed myself one night, drank up southside, slept at porks at 3 am. woke up for work at 6 am. then worked 7 - 4. then had to study after! it's really wearing me out... so i been chillin lately. monday, another late night with history exam prep. i had my exam tues. we were all stressin about it! but i think we'll all do alright. study study study, exams exams exams. damnit.

i kinda care about you, even after what we went through. i feel bad, if you were doin bad. why? how do i even kno how you're doin? guess i kinda know cuz i had to snoop. lol and if your reading this blog entry, you're a snooper too. so i guess what i'm sayin is, if you were down to talk. hit me up, let's do lunch.

i do things so unnecessarily. why do i care so much, would you do the same for me? NAW, rarely. goes to show how much effort i'm putting in, lack of anything there, waiting for you to jump in. i jumped off, fell down. waiting for you to meet me there, i dont see you and i just frown. look at me, layin on the ground. with a frown, drinkin crown. siiike, but really lookin like a clown. you can only do so much, with out taking chances of gettin rejected. why is rejection such a big thing, its better than havin your heart neglected. keepin feelings inside, when they're meant to tell the world. keep your bullshit inside, theres no room for it in this world. you, her, and her: i'm you guys plan B. i bring my A game, but sit on bench constantly. don't get me wrong, sure i can get play. but no play i want, they're just fun and games. so i don't take advantage, cuz i want you. so for right now my hearts got a bandage, from lack of you too. i guess i'm waiting for you to holler at me boo. im sittin here with my un-laced shoes. trying to run shit, i need you to tie them, so we can shit.

go listen to: colby o donis - thinking bout ya
i heard this song a couple months ago, and was like damn did this guy just take all my thoughts and put it in his song? that biter. just kidding.

hey girl. you're getting hotter. hotter than the average temperature that a man could stand if you hold my hand, i could be your man. but i, didn't kno you'd make this harder. whatchu tryna say baby... running games on me.

girl i will try, to give the best to you, and do the things others wouldn't do. cause your expectations got so high, i could be your guy only if i tried, but i kno i gotta step my game up.

girl i been thinkin bout ya.
girl i been dreamin bout ya..

...cause the scent of your clothes, the red blush on your face, even your swagger makes me wish that i could grab a taste. cause you don't know, all the hoops i had to go through to get you a second in my life...

...don't be distant, don't be shy...

..girl i'll break my back, to cover all your needs, as long as you is pleased, it don't matter to me...

anyways, it's been raining non stop. that makes me wanna sleep, plus i only got 3 hours of sleep this morning before i had to go to work. deco's was fun tho. i have a lot of hw to catch up on tonight, so i better sleep now. class tomorrow morning =(

i've got problems in the morning. no matter what i'm doing, i'm LATE. since i've worked at vons, i've been 10 minutes late for work, daily. it's weird cause i'm exactly 10 mintues late. why can't i be exactly on time?? i try really hard, and i just can't do it. same goes for school... so i just skipped econ all together. my teacher is crazy, she teaches at mesa and sdsu, and i don't know what her deal is, but she misses class every other class. but never tells us anything! so i figure, why not skip it. i went and got a haircut. i've been cutting my hair and it's gettin fucked up. so i paid 14 dollars + tip for the lady who is a professional to do exactly what me or a homie could have done to my hair. then i had a quiz in humanities today, i'm pretty sure i failed. it's ok though, i have time to get my A in there. after school, had a quick photoshoot with adda hahaha. her sk takes pretty good pics.

i'm so lazy after school, school gets me extra tired. so i have to nap. i missed one of my homegirls bday kickbacks. i was about to head up to temecula tonight, i haven't been up there in a long time. i skipped that. and i'm home, and need to wake up for work at 7 am. well i might be up in temecula tomorrow, hit me up! i have no idea what i'm doing on valentines day haha. i could do a last minute bs date, but i don't know if i want to do that. any cuties wanna hit me up?? ;) sunday deco's for og jeannies bday. hit me up with first and last names for guest list!!

i found a new love for silly string. i sprayed "hater" really bad. i felt bad! hahaha sorry adda. and i sprayed some random cuties ;) i even sprayed this one girl that doesn't talk to me anymore, alex. WHATS UP if you're reading this!

kind of a crazy story. get this, i was trippin out. i added this girl on myspace yesterday. just cause i thought i knew her, or i've seen her around. then today, i saw this cute girl leaving school, i just thought she was a random cute girl. and i sprayed her car with silly string when we were at a stop sign! then saw her at a stop light, and i tried to talk to her for a second, said hi, then the light turned. but the girl in the car was the girl i added on myspace previously before all this happened today! so i got a comment on myspace saying hey you sprayed my car with silly string! and i was like whaaaat. what a small world huh? i hope she doesn't think i'm too much of a goof ball LOL.

well school is still sucky, i think i'm in for a shity awakening though. i've been slackin... and test quizes and exams are right around the corner. i need to buckle down.

study sesh? let's set um. i know i know, we don't have the same classes right? but the fact you meet up to study, you're probably more likely to study! so hit me up!

"HATER" sprayed, in her stank ass car. jk maaayne

imagine this, you wake up at 6 am for work. you're tired, lazy, and just want to get back to bed. plus it's raining harder than it does in movies. you force yourself to get to work... 30 minutes late. then after attempting to work for an hour, you sneak away to your car. its pouring rain outside. so hard, that you almost got in an accident on your way to work. you get in your car, while you're still on the clock getting paid, tired... not wanting to be at work at all. jump in the drivers seat, wet all over, wet socks, kind of have to pee. recline the seat back. its cold, but you have two hoodies on. you hear the hard rain hitting your car, you turn your radio on and play your slow jam cd... with the volume low enough so you can still hear the rain. looking up threw the moonroof, watching each drop splash as it hits the glass. you close your eyes, and fall asleep.

then girl, you can imagine you were on my mind right before i dozed off. you probably were ;)

work of art flow!
we were a work of art, i used a sharpie. you used a pencil, and drew all sloppy. after it was done, you got an eraser, erased all the pencil and left me thinkin should i chase her? i chased after you, before our art was finished, and i don't know why i chased you after our art diminished. all this for no reason, i really trusted you, but all your acts of treason; or were you just teasin. you just wanted some pleasin. you told me im cool, fly, and super steezin. so much wasted effort on you, like so many other people in my life, you'd think i'd get the clue. i'm better than you, but i dont need to hear it. cause deep down i know and you're gonna hear it. "you're a dumbass" "you're a bitch" "you're wasting time on shit that ain't legit". you think you look for the good in people, you see the good, hate on it cause you don't get to see people. get out of your bubble, you're going no where. you've got such big plans to end up somewhere.

it bugs me when girls act beyond their age, unless they back it up, life is such a bigger stage. you get up there, and use big words. but honestly, can you define those words? word. see, you pulled out a dictionary. you sing like a scrub but think you sould like mariah carey. i can say you're letting your self go. you have no physical acivity except walkin to the store for some ho ho's. and on your way there, people callin you a ho ho. well i need to go, good luck fosho HO.
<3 brandon. jk

HAHA i have no idea why i felt like i had to write that. i'm not even in a bummed out mood, just had some weird thoughts about past memories and future situations. i guess it's just inspiration. lol jk. you probably have an idea who its about, it isn't about her tho. or her. but i think it's about her. it's kind of a random words put together, based on those past and future memories and situations.

so many girls to write about, is this about you? maybe, maybe not, maybe two of you. ya right! i'm no player, but lately gettin played.. like i'm just fun and games. from day 1, i thought you were cute, fly and what not. believe it or not you were hotter than the sneakers i just bought. if you were my size, i'd wear you on the daily. lace my shoes tight, run shit like you do daily. you do more than run shit, you're running through my mind. how i'd love to be up on you and feelin them theighs. siiiiiiike. thats not what i'm about, i'm not like every other guy, calm down don't shout. those phonies... honeslty i just want to spend time, kickit, not tryna get domies. chill like homies. well i'll take it from there, then maybe give it a shot. see if you were really hotter than the sneakers i bought. i don't see you too often, but still give me and you a thought =) haha actually maybe i'm just crushin. i'll give it time no need for rushin.

well i'm glad this week is over, i've had 0 days off from school and work. next week i'll have more time off thank god. i only got out of the house twice this week, and i had to be home early cause of school or work the next day. i can tell when i'm spending more time at home:

1 - i have a lot more pocket money cause i'm not out spending money.
2 - i find myself having longer conversations on aim, talking on oovoo, and replying to comments and messeges on myspace real quick cause im HOME! haha

i been slangin textbooks this week too. all the people that picked up books were dope!. lot of um were cuties, and down to kickit. weird huh? reminds me one time i bought something off craigslist, and met up with the girl with some friends and the girl was cute! and she was trying to hang out with me. weird... school sucks, except for socializing. second week of school this week =( so far away from the end of the semester. saw a face i didn't think i would have, i just said "how ya doin?" lol geez.. why am i so nice? i have no reason to be. oh well. heroes starts tomorrow. lol ya i'm a nerd bout that. oh and some nigga hit my car today in the parking lot, nothing major.. but still.

so i was saying, usually i love first days back at school. but i wasn't feelin this semester. but once i arrived, i was in YO! HOW YOU DOIN!? mode. it was nice seeing some old faces, swear i felt like fall 08 all over again. then meetin some new faces is always fun.

feels like fall 08 cause i see the same faces, but i'm not going outta my way to meet people; the homies... are already homies!

econ 120 w/ tim
class seems dope, definitely some chill people in there. no eye candy, but looks like theres some suckers that'll support steezbot!! haha jk, for real though. good vibes in the room. homie status.

history 101 w/ alfred and adda
see some familiar faces in there too. i like the teacher, seems like a good one. class seems a little tough though. we did an intro of ourseleves in class, and somehow i ended up saying something about steezbot. it was kind of funny. seems like a lot of work ahead, but i see me having fun in there at the same time.

humanities 101 w/ adda
dropped my og class, and crashed a better one. i want to make a new friend in there ;) haha jk not really. then not really seein any homies in the class. but teacher seems alright, kind of a spaz but i think the class will run smoothly.

i don't think i'm going to take the 8 week night class MW. i might stick with 9 units this semester?

so seeing a lot of the same faces, probably kick it with rob somedays. nicole somedays. health class homies! tim and alfred on the daily. adda daily. i see a fun, educational, and hopefully drama free semester ahead. you at mesa T TH?? let's grab lunch!!

i need a new job

i'm sick of my job, no money and doing this bullshit... stacking fruits and vegetables all day can make your crazy.


back to school spring 2009

usually i look forward to first days back. got the back to school clothes on, new kicks, meeting new people. blah blah blah.

but i'm looking forward to ABSOLUTELY NOTHING tomorrow. no new clothes, no new kicks... not that that's a big deal. but no school supplies, shity schedule, crashing classes, fucked up parking. then i still hate my job, i want a new one. hook it up? and my car is dirty as fuck. that usually bugs me but i feel so lazy, dull, whatever...

lackluster.

my life tomorrow. sucks.

people think i'm a baller, i'm not, nor a shot caller. all i wanna do is holler! but i hold back... cause i can't. almost like you're off limits but i swear my heart can't withstand... all these feelings gettin built up. like a puzzle after gettin ripped up. how do we know me and you aren't puzzle pieces? we might fit together maybe not let's go talk about it and help me prove my thesis. my thesis intends to prove that we could be together, no matter what happens, in good and bad weather. let me be a rat, and you can be my cheddar. i would just love to write you super sweet love letters. i'm scared that you'll never get to hear my real feelings, but read this flow and maybe you'll get a taste of what i'm dealin. over time i could get over you, but the fact i never tried would eat at me, all i wanna do is holler at you.

mountain biking is definitely in the future. some co workers are hardcore, i'm looking forward to it.

anyways, i went to this vietnamese festival today. to kickit, grub, and support og jeannie. it was like a carnival thing, with games and stuff. of course i wasted a lot of money, i like winning games and getting prizes though. before the fashion show, was some whack viet american idol. i was going nuts! then some deep talks with adda about macking on girls, pretty dope. JK i don't mack. i wish though right?

anyways, life has been GOOD lately. busy but not swampped. school starts tuesday, i'm sure that'll throw a curveball into my dailys.

tomorrow will be non stop, i'm super tired. then work 7 - 4. straight to balboa for OG's beauty pageant, then whatever else the night has in store for me. i wanna make it up to costa mesa for a friends kickback, and whatever else functions. i think i just might be pooped out.

OH, and i had some vietnamese treat. i guess its pineapple, and they put that mexican lucas sugar salt shit on it. it was naaaaaasty. like putting shit on your lips and it gets stuck there.

my body is like jello right now, first time working out since last year!! i only can work out once a week, cause i go for free at my friend tiffany's work. i need to re-new my gym membership...


and this dumb girl in my life is lookin like shit..

its been a while! you've gained weight! messin with my feelings just cause of time constraints. you were never all that great. nothin but a fake!

like the rest of you haters, all on my jock til you get somethin else see you later. all this is happenin so frequently, you messed wit my feelings consistently. you actin all delinquently. you get what im saaayin? SEE! i know eventually you'll be missin me. i missed you, not missin you.. see you around have a good life b.

real quick, let me tell you about my indian food story. i read up about this 2012 end of the world ish right... and obama has some part in this stuff in some stories. it's late night, eating indian food. RANDOM. get on the computer, RANDOMLY google does obama like indian food. seriously, what would urge me to do that. BAM! a whole article about obama and him liking indian food. CRAZY right? this all happening on his first day in office. i'm thinking weird... is this some crazy connection? yes i'm probably trippin.

You Miss Me?
the end of 2008 was a big change for me, cut off a lot of close friends. why were we close friends? if i asked any of these people this question, they wouldn't know what to say. i'm so happy with my life right now, i wonder if i'd be any happier if i were still on good terms with some of these close people. if you really get to know me, you'd know i'm a good friend. and nothing gets in the way of that. so of course if were not friends right now, obviously it's cause of you. i can ask all of you guys this question, and you'd say it's your fault. it's not even like i'm mad about the outcome, more like disappointed you can't be real, be open, put shit on the table. i hate answers that are like, "just because.." because WHY stupid? then what's even worse than that is a speechless answer. theres one person in mind i want to put on blast in front of people. dude would be speechless, enough said. cause you can only front when you're not around me lol. grow up everyone, i'm down to talk things out. i'm just not down to put effort into friends that don't do the same in return.

on a good note, my random wednesday night was pretty fun.

after a long day at work, i usually sleep most of the day away. cause im TIRED haha. but i was supposed to go to mesa to talk to my counselor. but i just ended up meeting with adda. kicked it at target, i love that target by mesa. i love just to pass time in there. then i met up with kris gat in mira mesa. chilled in barnes and noble haha with him and adda. i'm down for chill stuff like this, then with them no fronts, nothing to hide. real shit. so afterwards, kris went home. i had to hurry home and pay for my classes haha i forgot. did that real quick, then i went bowling for the second time this month with cherie and adda. these last minute bowling plans always end up being fun. bowled on base in national city. i haven't been there since i was a little kid and my grandparents would take me to the exchange. we did teams against one of cheries friends. ABC KREW IN THIS BITCH. HAHA. god, adda bowls so weird, its funny. then cherie ends up being all pro! then i bowled whatever. haha you have to see this video of adda bowl, its nuts. then our action bowling shots are pretty dope. i think bowling is always a fun activity, and before this month, i haven't bowled since back in 07! i know we had fun haha. shout out to james chinn, vanessa van, and kim whatever the hell your last name is. haha jk, they witnessed my 202. whaaaaats up. my score today was 130! weeaaaak. cherie was beating me til the last frame.

harry, paaida, and landon.

i forgot i'm off tomorrow. i'm supposed to go on a bike ride with some of my co-workers. i love it, cause they are REAL, and don't bullshit like some other people i used to know. they mountain bike on trails and stuff... not really my thing but i'm dying for some exercise in my life. i hope i wake up early enough to go.

so i haven't blogged in a while. let's catch up?

big plans were to club in anaheim sunday night. but i had work =( at 7 o clock the next morning. i have a bad track record with late night drives home to sd, then getting to work by 7 am. but yeah so this weekend, i was going to go to oxnard? not really though, but it was on my away msg, that i was in oxnard. nobody on aim ever replies to my away msgs... it was weird cause i get back. at least 10 IMs going. oxnard? you in oxnard? what are you doin in oxnard? HAHA. so i really wasn't in oxnard this weekend. but i got a last minute invite to party in oc. i cruised up with adda and cherie. we dropped off one of their homies in riverside... and we were supposed to kickback there. parents there chillin, dudes playin halo, no drinks, and we played wii. now thats what i call a down ass kickback. siiike. we dipped out quick, and headed to diamond bar. party was chillin, but not poppin. so just crashed in fullerton. i wish people in oc would txt me back when i txt them... =( so early morning drive back to sd. those girls drive pretty fast or something, cause the drive was short. early morning hunger kicked in, they wanted vietnamese lol. it actually hit the spot, and we all smelled like asian food. staaaaank.

oh and back to today, i must have been having the worst day of my life almost. or i had some really bad luck. i have a bad right knee from soccer injuries and snowboarding. it hasn't bothered me for like 3 years. i get up funny, BOOM, my knee was fucked up. i couldn't move outta bed, i was stuck there. yelling for my mommy. she couldn't do anything to help though. i had to suck it up, and like pop my knee back in place. it hurt really bad. then, accidently do something to my profile. it erased my whole myspace layout. that was weird. so i had to re-do my whole myspace. not like thats a big deal but like i've never erased it before. then i was updating my ipod, it said ok to disconnect. so i do, and it froze up. it erased all my songs! i've had memories with this ipod! and i lost 2000 + songs. i was really mad about that, and it's so much work getting all the music back on there. i'm actaully to lazy to do it.

and happy birthday nicole! school starts next week..... oh and whats up president obama.

YO! so as of right now, i'm blogging on here instead of tumblr. check out www.bsteezy.tumblr.com for post before this one.